Blank
Last Sunday, I developed a fever. So on the following day, the day's events never really registered.
Monday was doomsday. SPM results came out. I managed to not think about it. In the morning, I had a high fever so I visited the doctor then, to school I went. As I received my results slip, there was no emotional response - I was blank.
Malay - B3
Moral - A1
English - A1 GCE 'O' English - A1
Maths - A1
Additional maths - A1
Physics - A1
Chemistry - A1
Biology - A2
EST - A1
History - A1
One subject short of straight A's. I went back home and tried sleeping the fever off (39.7 C). Didn't think about it.
Then today... wham... it hit me! ... so many people got straight A's. Joshua Tan had 11A1's. Joanna with her 11A1's. Hehn with his 10A1's. Even Eric got 10 A's. And apparently Helena got straight A1's and is the top 7th in the district. I feel like digging a hole in the ground and hiding in it. I feel depressed... I tell myself that Malay and Biology are not in my A levels combination so I'll have no problem getting straight A's but that doesn't really help. Neither do all the comments that go "...that's quite good..." and "...that's okay..." But as the Queen song goes... "my smile still stays on. The show must go on."
Worse yet, the government still hasn't replied to my national service deferment letter so I might have to cut my A levels short, waste RM 8k and go live in some jungle and march everyday... THIS SUNDAY!
Grrr.
Monday was doomsday. SPM results came out. I managed to not think about it. In the morning, I had a high fever so I visited the doctor then, to school I went. As I received my results slip, there was no emotional response - I was blank.
Malay - B3
Moral - A1
English - A1 GCE 'O' English - A1
Maths - A1
Additional maths - A1
Physics - A1
Chemistry - A1
Biology - A2
EST - A1
History - A1
One subject short of straight A's. I went back home and tried sleeping the fever off (39.7 C). Didn't think about it.
Then today... wham... it hit me! ... so many people got straight A's. Joshua Tan had 11A1's. Joanna with her 11A1's. Hehn with his 10A1's. Even Eric got 10 A's. And apparently Helena got straight A1's and is the top 7th in the district. I feel like digging a hole in the ground and hiding in it. I feel depressed... I tell myself that Malay and Biology are not in my A levels combination so I'll have no problem getting straight A's but that doesn't really help. Neither do all the comments that go "...that's quite good..." and "...that's okay..." But as the Queen song goes... "my smile still stays on. The show must go on."
Worse yet, the government still hasn't replied to my national service deferment letter so I might have to cut my A levels short, waste RM 8k and go live in some jungle and march everyday... THIS SUNDAY!
Grrr.
1 Comments:
Why complain about such good marks? Even if other people got them, you know you'd feel worse if you got a lot Bs or Cs...why dwell?
And at 39C, I'd be dead! (My body temperature's literally lower than most) Are you okay? I haven't seen you around.
JV
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